expecto patronum

I'm sitting in bed right now and am far too awake. Would you like to know why? I will tell you.

I awoke this morning to a very dark room, which was an instant give away that it was a shitty, grey day out. For the first time in forever, I didn't have my cell phone sleeping right next to my head, so I wasn't sure of the time, but I could hear my roommates milling about in the kitchen so I figured it had to be about 9am--right before most of them were off to class.
I kind of laid in bed for another 10 or 15 minutes, just casually trying to get myself back to sleep since I don't have class until 7pm on Tuesdays. But after trying, I realized I wasn't tired at all. If anything, I felt overtired because my head was kind of heavy and my eyes hurt. SO, I made my way out of bed and over to my cell phone to take a peek at the time, which was...1:00!!
Well, well, well.
For a lot, I'm sure this isn't a big deal. It's not THAT late. But for me, especially in the dark-at-4:30 winter months, waking up at 1:00 is wasting your whole day. Not to mention it makes ya feel so shitty.
Yelling at myself (not literally) for sleeping in so late, I tried my best to get up and moving. But as I emerged from my room to find all my roommates watching afternoon game shows, my motivation to get up and go kind of died and I spent the next 3 hours watching people guess lyrics and make deals. Great accomplishment? Definitely not. I basically slept all day and now, unfortunately, will not be able to sleep tonight.

But don't worry, I'm not the world's biggest lazy bum. At 6:00 I finally got myself together and made my way to school for my 7pm night class. It was the worst walk in the rain, and halfway there my umbrella was blown completely inside out (people laughed) so I was soaked by the time I sat down in lecture. I sat for 2 hours and finally sweet talked my roommate into picking me up so we could head to the grocery store and stock up on appropriate Victorias Secret Fashion Show viewing snacks (celery, cheese, and party mix...?).
We then proceeded home to watch the show. I already blogged about it. Hiya.

Anyway, there you go, the story of my day.
I really wish I could sleep right now. I've started this new habit of watching Harry Potter in bed while simultaneously posting things to my blog and Tumblr. I'm becoming a bit of a blogging junky. I think it's because I'm even more attached to my computer than usual (if it's possible) these days because of all my school work.
It's definitely becoming one of my new favourite things to do during the day. I even shared my tumblr link on Facebook, which is something I'm not usually down to do...the whole promoting my self on FB thing, I mean. It makes me feel kind of awkward. But I kinda figure, whats the point of writing stuff on the interweb if you don't want people to read it. Right?

I'm going to make some Sleepy Time tea and settle in with The Prisoner of Azkaban...

girl crush

Tonight was, as I'm sure most of you know, the VS Fashion Show.
After gathering as many snacks as we could (you know, to really amp up the feeling of guilt and sadness while viewing) my roommates and I settled in to watch the 1 hour spectacle.
Every year I think the designers outdo themselves more and more. The outfits and the ideas were so amazing. I'm posting a few of the look that I remember screaming at tonight..

sunshine

American Gold spring '11..:)

tumblr AND bloglovin, all in one night!

I've had tumblr for about a year now, but I think I'm going to finally start using it:
http://skward.tumblr.com/

AND I joined bloglovin tonight, SO:
Follow my blog with bloglovin

satellite of love

Is it cliche to say I'm stuck in a rutt at this time of year?
My thoughts are: probably.
I know it's a stressful time for all my fellow Unversians--thats no secret. I'm being complained to just as much as I'm complaining to others and the exhausted, I'm-longing-to-go-to-the-bar-tonight-and-not-write-that-paper look that 75% of campus is sporting these days is a dead giveaway. But it's insanely unfair and unjust, don't ya think, for one of the most stressful times of year to be occurring as we make our way into hell (aka winter)? It's not enough that we have to deal with the terrible cold and dreary days, but now we can't even distract ourselves from them with our social lives because we're stuck in our rooms or--better yet, my favourite place--the library. The good ol library. My second home.

I get highly effected by times of the year like this, and I start to become really anxious and bored with my daily routine. And since this routine for the past 3 weeks has been wake up, go to class, go to library, come home late, watch TV, sleep, repeat..it's obvious how one can become easily bored. But it still blows.
This little rutt of mine leads to me doing a whole lotta thinking. My brain is already working at 2x it's usual rate from all the researching and writing, so why not expand it even more by reevaluating my life for the millionth time? Yeah. So. I've been in this mode where I've been looking at all aspects of my life and figuring out what I'm happy with, what I'm unhappy with, and what I'm just completely, 100% not sure about. And it's kind of ironic, don't you think, because all the thinking is adding on this unnecessary stress and digging my rutt deeper. Oh my oh my oh my.

Anyway, yes. That is what is up with my life right now. I'm stressed and I'm thinking a lot. Oh my god Sarah, really?? You've neverr been like this before (sarcasm, sarcasm, sarcasm)!!!

BUT on a wonderful, bright, and shiny note, I'm so happy that Christmas is coming up. Call me a lame-o, but the holidays make me beyond giddy. Once the lights start going up and the Christmas carols come around in full force, I'm 8 years old again and everything is magical and perfect.
Because of my busy schedule, I haven't had much time to focus on Christmas YET, but once I'm out of my rutt in a couple of weeks, I'll be in the celebrating mode. And the gift giving mode (with the little money I have...). The best part of the season.

I'll be posting my own Christmas wish list on this thing soon. It's a wish list, so it's not practical. All I really want and hope for this Christmas is grocery store gift cards and a durable winter coat so I don't freeze to death on my walk to and from school. Ohhh the weather outside is frightful..

i like brian

Brian Lichtenberg caters to my obsession with oversized shirts and leggings.
And has created the dress that I really want to be wearing this NYE...but you know, for about 1/5 the price. Let's be honest, my bank account could afford a sleeve of this beautiful blue one:

alice+olivia

I love Alice + Olivia. The spring'11 collection is ridiculous. It's like it hits on every decade and style at least once. Please observe

awooo!

I would probably never wear this thing in public.. but it looks so warm and it just rules, to say the least.
via Spirithoods

something beautiful, but so dysfunctional

The transition from autumn to winter is probably one of my most feared things.
I know a lot of people love winter with it's beeaauutiful snow and sparkly-ness, but when I think of winter all that comes to mind is frostbite, bad hair days, runny noses, and all in all just one very grumpy Sarah.
As with the end of summer, I try to deny the end of autumn for as long as I possibly can. When the temperatures begin to dip into the single digits around the beginning of November, I continue to wear my paper thin jean and leather jackets with absent minded regard to the aching chills I feel when walking outside. And when I awake to my car covered in a layer of frost, I quickly scrape it off to hide any evidence that winter is looming in on me, and drive with the window down to make myself feel better.
Basically, I go into denial.
This year's transition has been exceptionally terrible as it has come during my busiest time at school. My desire to attend classes has been compromised. Because I refuse to bring my winter coat and mittens out of the closet, my 10 minute walk to class is a shivering mess of zero fun that I try to avoid at all costs. The fact that walking to school makes me want to hop on the first plane to LA is not the greatest since I seem to have something due in a different class every day of my life.
And THEN, next to the icky cold, there is the darkness.
When I had an essay to write the other evening, I went for a nap at around 4:00 in expectations of awaking around 5:30 to get to work. However, when I awoke at 5:30 I was in a pitch black bedroom (yeah, fuck da time change) and so disoriented by the fact that it had suddenly become the middle of the night, that my motivation to work plummeted and I spent my night in front of the TV shouting things at Pat Sajak and Alex Trebek.

So, I guess what I am trying to get at here (with all my bitching and complaining) is, I am looking for a place to live in either California or Mexico. If someone could please contact me with any offers, I will be packed and ready to go within 24 hours of you doing so.
Thank you for your help.

georgie peorgie

Georgia Jagger.
Great genes in this family.

friday night...

It's only 7:30 but it feels like it could be midnight. As I sit here overly prepared to go out--dressed up and contemplating opening the wine-- I got to thinking.
Have you ever said or done something..anything.. and afterward been so utterly baffled as to why, because the thing that you said or did is not how you feel and not how you wanted to come off?
I've been doing this a lot lately. Reacting to situations or making comments in ways that I don't understand. Basically, I've just been coming off completely wrong to a lot of people and it's starting to become a frustrating occurrence in this crazy little life of mine. Perhaps I have lost my ability to demonstrate the things I'm thinking in my mind through emotions and words, or mixing up the emotions and words I should be using in regards to what I'm thinking.
I think I'm making sense.

dear justine

ACCEPT THEM INTO YOUR LIFE.
ALEXANDER WANG SAYS SO.
:)